Lets Have a Baby la la la

Guys. Let me start off by saying I am so grateful for my Owen. He is so rotten, and so awesome, I love him to pieces!! But, I am so frustrated. I'll just cut straight to the problem. I have been trying to get pregnant for ten months. TEN. I feel like a spoiled rotten brat being mad, worried, and frustrated because I know there are people who try for a lot longer, or people who can't conceive at all. But now I don't mind being a little selfish because I am hurt, and no matter what there will always be someone who has it worse than me, so when is the appropriate time to share? I have been wanting a baby since Owen turned one, so I was just waiting for my cutie husband to be on the same page. Finally he was so we literally got busy right away, if you know what I mean ;) When we found out I was pregnant with Owen we were surprised because we had not been trying, so this whole trying thing is new to me!
I have been tracking my cycle, and ovulation times long before we started trying to get pregnant. I wanted to be familiar with my body, and timing because I wanted to get pregnant when I wanted to get pregnant. When David decided he was ready for another baby he said he didn't want this to be a chore, and still wanted it to be fun so not to talk to him about cycles and ovulation because that's a big turn off to talk about lady stuff I guess? I don't blame him! So I have kept my lips zipped. I have not been on birth control for over 4 years, I have had a plethora of ovulation kits, and pregnancy tests in the bathroom so surely he has seen them.
People are always asking me when I am going to have another baby and I joke with them about how Owen is enough for me, but it's a lie. I have always hated when people made comments about how Owen is almost 3 it's time for another because I have always felt like trying to conceive and being early in pregnancy is a very intimate thing and should be kept a secret between two people, and sometimes with parents, or a close friend. Why though? Why can't people know? I have always heard that you should not say anything just in case of a miscarriage. But if I ever miscarry I want people I am friends with to know, It would be so heartbreaking and so I would want people to know why I was sad so they could just let me be sad for a little while, and maybe give me a hug. I don't want to pretend to be okay when I am not, so that's why I am sharing this post. I am not okay with NOT having another baby. Owen needs a brother (or sister! I won't be picky!).
I have talked to my doctor about my concerns and she wanted me to wait until I had been trying for 6 months, so I waited, then I decided to clean up my eating a lot, and lose some weight to see if that would help my body before bringing it back up with her. That was the #1 reason I started Whole30. I have done so much reading on how to tell the minute your body is ovulating (with out tests), ovulating in general, cycles, tips and wives-tales to help, and so far it's been a bust. Whole30 has not let me down so far I lost 18 pounds, haven't had problems with IBS or geographical tongue, and just feel better. It is supposed to help in a lot of cases of infertility and so many other health problems. This is the last thing to check off of my Whole30 list. If anyone has any tips, thoughts, stories, or anything I would love to hear them.

Ahhhh...I think it's time to go to the sea.

Starting my Healthy Journey

Hello!
I am starting my health journey. For the 3rd time. Here's my story..

When I was 18 I met this awesome guy on a blind date, we fell in love soon after, and were married 6 months later. I was not fit, and knew nothing about fitness but I was skinny. I was a small/size 3. I ate and drank really terrible. I'm talking super-sized McDonald's at least once a day, and 60+ ounces of Dr. Pepper (and worse, trust me!). I was going to school for Occupational Science, and worked 2 jobs so I was busy and ate out a lot. Prior to my 'busy' days I used to jog/run a decent amount, and I enjoyed it but it wasn't a priority.

After my husband and I had been married 13 months we got pregnant. I carried him to 37 weeks and gained about 25 pounds. After he was born I lost all my pregnancy weight within a couple weeks, and I was so relieved! I breast fed, and while doing so I had the WORST cravings for chocolate chip cookies, and root beer. I thought since I was nursing I could eat what ever I wanted. Well, that was not the case. I gained all that weight back in just a few short months! WHAT?!
Four months postpartum my friend Teri was on an awesome road to fitness and success and started a health coached diet bet and invited me to join. This is when I was introduced to clean eating, and I loved it! I never cheated on my diet, I was super diligent and lost a huge chunk of my weight during this month long 'diet'. I planned on continuing the clean eating habits but, we were moving 2,000 miles away just a few weeks after and I was really busy packing, and looking for housing, etc. So once again things sort of got placed on the back burner, and I didn't make it a priority. That summer I tried to pick up my healthy habits again but I was not very motivated, and I was kind of sad to be so far away from all my family and loved ones, so I started gaining weight. I gained it all back in just a few months.

Left was after gaining the weight back from round 1
Right was during weight loss round 2 (Medifast)

Nearly a year after I was introduced to clean eating I sought out help for losing this weight again, I tried the Medifast diet for 4 weeks and lost almost all my weight! I was so happy to feel so good again. After I finished that we moved another 1,000 miles further from our original home in Idaho. I was working out every day, I got a membership to a gym, a jogging stroller for my cutie pie, and I tried to keep up some clean and healthy habits. I was making new friends and so often heard things like "don't go to the gym, come hang out", or they would encourage me to cheat on my diet. (DISCLAIMER: No one controls your health. That is up to YOU. Do not let anyone disapprove of your healthy choices just because they don't understand them! and I really do love my friends here, they are great and we are all in the same boat, and on the same page!) and so I slipped up occasionally, then all the time. I lost sights of my health, goals, wins, and habits. I gained all that weight back. and some.
I have tried numerous times to start up a diet, participate in diet bets, and nothing has motivated me enough to put down that dessert! (I am queen of making fatty, sugary, and the most delectable desserts you will ever taste- that's my problem!)
Well, here I am, 23, goals in sight, and motivated. I really believe this time this is it. I know quite a bit about health and fitness. Well, enough to get healthy, and happy anyway.
I do believe there is room for all things in moderation. IN. MODERATION. I also believe there is a time and place for all things. Right now is not the time, nor place for me. I'm sticking hard to the paleo/clean eating/Whole30 (Oh, did I mention I am working on my first ever Whole30?!), and not allowing any cheat meals. When I have reached my place I will switch to a 85/15 diet (or something similar). I stick to things so much better when I am under a scope so I know this blog will help me get to my new place and I am just as excited about getting my family healthy, as I am about myself. They deserve it more than anything.